MommaDJane Rebranded – Derailed Control Freak

I cannot believe I have been blogging for nearly five years now.  Of course that’s if you don’t count the AOL days and the MySpace journal.  Otherwise I could date it back to the year 2000.  In the Spring of 2007 I created a family blog to share my journey of caring for Gabby.  It was my way to connect with other special needs mothers and to share updates with family and friends without being on the phone all day long.  My blog went from HubSpot to Sampa to Blogger and now has lived on WordPress for the past three years.  With each move came a new design, each design resembling more of my personality.

    

Last year a lot in my life changed.  That sentence sounds funny to me actually when I think about it.  My life has been changing over the course of several years and we haven’t had very many dull moments to say the least.  In 2011 it seems things finally started to settle.  I matured in even more ways, the main area being my faith.  I realized when I looked at my blog the design was nothing like I wanted.  It wasn’t my favorite colors, the tag line no longer truly fit me and even though I believe I am still climbing the ladder to success in life, one broken step at a time, it just wasn’t… enough.

That’s when I went to my good friend Erica, the only woman I trust with all my tech and design work.  I knew I wanted a blog that was fresh, clean and had to have the color green in it since that is obviously my favorite color and even the colors in my office.  I wanted for anyone to be able to open my blog and feel that it relates to me, personally.  I mean that is what a personal blog should do, right?

After brainstorming over what I wanted the blog to resemble; where I had been in life, where I felt I was at this point and where I’m headed; I came up with the tag line of being a control freak derailed.  Erica helped me decide on the perfect wording and design while my mother took some fun photos of me down at the local railroad tracks.  Once it was finished I can finally say I feel it is the first design that suits me perfect.

All of my life I have battled with some sort of control issue and a slight problem with perfectionism.  I’m sure some of my friends will read that sentence and probably laugh at the reality of it.  That’s okay I laugh about it too.  I’ve never been the one to try and control someone else, just my own life.  Becoming a teen mom I had to overcome a lot of negativity and always felt I was trying to prove I could succeed even with odds against me.  Succeed in parenting, school, work and life…  That’s a tough role to keep with such high expectations.  God has shown me over the years that I’m not the one in control, at all.  Even the days after I realized that was the case it’s funny how often I would battle myself over letting go of the things I couldn’t control.  Like that saying ‘we are our own worst enemy at times’ or is it ‘we are our own worst critic’?  Either way, that was me…

Changing your personality and outlook on life isn’t easy and is never a task that is fully complete.  I think it’s a true work in progress, a journey you continue on during the duration of your life.  At the beginning of last year I decided to finally let go of the control I truly never had, put my full faith in God, pray daily, get back involved in church and trust that the Lord will guide me on the path I’m supposed to be on.  I plan to make the best out of what I have, do the best with what God gives me and enjoy my blessings.  I can honestly say I’ve never been happier.  Thus creating the derailed control freak…

Comments

  1. says

    I love that you still love your design. :-) I also love that it matches your office and looks so ‘you.’ I’m having a hard time figuring out how to get ‘me’ in my blog design lately. I had to redo my portfolio site today (added your site. yay!) and I’m just not sure that I’m in love with it…
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    • MommaDJane says

      When I was tagging your site in my post I noticed the redesign of it. You might have a hard time figuring out how to make your site ‘you’ but you had no problem understanding and making my vision happen! ;-) Love it.

    • MommaDJane says

      I do love my boots. ;-) My mom and I actually had fun taking these photos. We just grabbed my Nikon and took off down the road to some secluded railroad tracks.

    • MommaDJane says

      I couldn’t have taken this step without you girl. I love you too and you’ll always have a very special place in my heart for helping me make all this happen. Your guidance has been priceless!

  2. says

    I am so happy for you, all that you have become in what, the four years or so we’ve been friends?! You are an amazing person & the derailed control freak really was a great tagline to make me feel “you” when I visit to read your blog updates. I am also happy you found faith in God again, because as someone who is now trying to reach out to find faith and such – it’s nice to have someone I can talk to openly about it and have an honest opinion. Love you always & here to support whatever you do, congrats on the look and new journey/path in life!
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    • MommaDJane says

      Thanks, bestie! I know you have watched this blog unfold over the years and you have stood by my side during the changes. It excites me to see how far the new directions will take us. And you know I will ALWAYS be here to talk faith with you any day of the week.

    • MommaDJane says

      Good luck in your search Lolli. This hasn’t been my first site redesign so I do understand the difficulty behind it. I’m so glad I finally feel like I have got it. Thanks for the support!

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